If you have a laundry list of grievances against pretty much everyone in your life, you should know something.
They know it.
They see that you never apologize for the things you do to hurt others and they see the look of self-righteous judgement on your face.
They see that you spend most of your time alone.
The ones who care will observe that you cut relationships off because you don’t know how to build bridges. Efforts to mend things are met with your door closed and locked. This is how you establish “control” of a situation you don’t have the emotional maturity to work through.
You believe you can read peoples’ minds. You think they judge you for the things you have judged yourself for. But you can’t read minds. These are your feelings about yourself and what you imagine others think of you.
You expect people to read your mind and know that when you slam the door, what you really want is for them to come knocking. But even when they do you won’t open the door because you want to stay in “control”. And you’ll resent these people most because they give you hope, but ultimately there is nothing they can do to help you.
– CS